Being confused

I have a lot of things to write but I couldn't get myself to start typing. All I know is that I'm very confused these few days. Confuse on everything. I don't know what to do and I don't know where to start. I am confuse on every little thing that come across my mind, even petty things like whether to have lunch or not. Sigh. It sucks. What has gotten to me? Everyday after work, I go home and played game until it is time to go to sleep which is after 11pm. Every morning woke up feeling very dreadful and with puffy eyes. And everyday, I don't feel like going to work, as usual. I have so many things to do at work but I hardly do anything at all. I felt so sick, so not lively, so tired of everything. But I still got a lot of things to think about and my gray hairs are getting uncountable. I have no mood to do anything. I just need some rest. I need a break. I need decision making skills. Gosh. I need a lot of things. And I need MONEY!!!

Recently, I went out with friends that I haven't met for a while now. And I kind of like this kind of things, keeping in touch with my old friends and meeting them, having a night out with them, bringing back old memories about how we used to be. I felt like I'm so left out and being conserved in my own world. Was I used to be like that all the time? Don't I have any friends left to hang out with? Am I so annoying? Maybe I'm just not that socialite. :(

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